Monday, November 12, 2012

No more

I wanted to let you know everything came back normal. When the lab tech took my blood last week, I asked about how they would detect cancer. She commented by my tumor markers. Since the blood draw, I was getting increasingly nervous about seeing my doctor today. You know, thinking the cancer was still lurking within me. I know, not positive but I am keeping it real. I asked the doctor about my labs specifically my tumor markers. She said that they don't test for those in breast cancer. What? I spent a whole week freaking out thinking today I may find out the cancer is back. What a waste of my time and energy! Well, no more! I guess I thought the tech would have magically known what type of cancer I had and what the doctor was looking for. Just so you know, my doctor was looking at marrow and liver and/or kidney levels. You know, seeing the toxic effects of my treatments. I am grateful that everything is normal. I just am kicking myself for allowing myself to get so nervous about a recurrence. This taught me that I cannot just be waiting for the other shoe to drop. I will be enjoying everyday. In fact, after the doctor appointment and my Herceptin infusion, I worked on a little project because it is something I enjoyed. I plan to keep myself busy with projects big or small because it makes me happy. Life is too short to worry and not be happy. Thanks for letting me purge. I plan on getting back to how things were before I got strapped onto this crazy roller coaster.

5 comments:

  1. Please do let us know how the tests come out. I think of you often. I would be a mess if I was going through the same. It is natural to worry..it is also more healthy not too. Easier said than done. You are an inspiration to all of us on how gracefully you have handled it all. I am praying for you and will have my fingers and toes crossed tonight too. Take care!

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  2. fingers crossed for good result for you. I hope you get some sleep!
    I'm sorry you are finding this time hard. I'm sure every body would also in your circumstances.
    take care of yourself and don't give yourself a hard time
    cheers Fiona xx

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  3. I will be praying the tests come back clear!!!!! Stay strong :o)
    ~Des

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  4. I have no words to comfort you. Please just know that you are in my prayers.

    xo

    Andie

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  5. I love this quote I pinned on Pinterest." Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but gets you no where". I think you just figured this out :). Have a Thankful Thanksgiving,, you deserve it.

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