Wednesday, May 2, 2012

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This is another post brought to you by the ramblings of cancer girl.  I hope you will stayed tuned and not unsubscribe or unfollow.  I will try to limit my ramblings.  I know we all wonder around blog land for inspiration.  Trust me, I know how depressing all of this cancer sharing can be.  So, hang in there with me.  I do have somethings to show you after I ramble.

I have officially made it half way through my chemo treatments.  I start a new chemo drug, Taxol, for the next two months.  I have my 1/2 way through chemo check with the surgeon next Tuesday.  I am terrified that the chemo isn't working and the four nuisances are growing.  I know it is counterproductive to think this way but I am only human.

When I first got the news that I had breast cancer, I was a complete mess.  Everyone was telling me to stay positive.  I really resented that.  I mean, I was positive I didn't want cancer and positive I don't want to die from it either.  After starting my chemo, I finally turned my attitude around.  Instead of it being, 'I may die from this.'  It turned into 'Let's get to this and finish it so I can live again.' 

Being a Christian, I have always thought of entering those pearly gates.  Those gates seemed to be set in front of me.  To tell you the truth, it is scary.  I know the one thing all of us have in common is we will all die.  I just never anticipated having to think about it this early.  I'll let you in on a little secret.  I still am not thinking about it.  I plan to make it through.  I did have to giggle when I thought about hubs having to go through my closet and things.  He would then know the real truth behind my hoarding habits.  It would probably give him a heart attack.  So, I better stick around.

Along with this being therapeutic, I have indulged in a little retail therapy.  This beauty was from the antique store where I have my booth.  Isn't it wonderful?!  It will look even better dripped in crystals, don't you think?
  


Next, I fell in love with this french little chair at the auction.  I felt like it represented me. 


A little broken and tattered but still here.  It will need the bad parts fixed and replaced but will end up looking great!  (Hopefully, like me.) 






You just got to love retail therapy.  You can find hope and inspiration anywhere.  Hope you are having a great week!

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13 comments:

  1. Great chair and light! I can see beautiful crystals hanging from that light! I'll bet you're glad you are at the half way point {although, I'll bet you wish you were at the end point of the chemo treatments}. Life isn't always pretty rooms and things we find at the thrift store, so personally I'm fine with you sharing your "knock that cancer out" journey. : ) It could happen to any one of us.

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  2. I always wondered ,(not wanting to really now) if I was told I have any kind of cancer would I fight it or just go on to the pearly gates ?

    Your chandelier is wonderful and I have a chair similar to that only it has a seat

    grace be with you kid

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  3. As I read your blog today you come across as being in a better place than you were - maybe calmer some how. I love your new goodies and can't wait to see what you do with them. My very best wishes to you for next Tuesday.

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  4. Hang in there! I have 2 more weeks of Taxol to go. It is an inconvenience, but far better than A/C! I almost slapped a few people when they told me to stay positive, and I always was a so-called positive person. This Breast Cancer journey stuff is a whole different ball game! You will do it. It is not for the faint-hearted. So many people could never make it through this. BUT YOU WILL!!!

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  5. I am so glad to see you are writing again. I've been worried about you. You guys are in my prayers.

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  6. I LOVE both of your retail therapy items. Hang in there. Cancer sucks, but you can get through it!

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  7. I'm so glad to know that you are half way there! I found that some people didn't know what to say, so they stayed away...some people were so overly dramatic, and had that look of pity in their eyes, like if I lived through this, it would be a miracle, and then the others...who like you said, kept repeating the "stay positive" line. Fun stuff for sure. ;-)
    I am really happy that you are in the you-know-what kicking place in your journey! Woo-hoo! You are gonna kick some cancer booty!!
    I've been thinking of you and sending up prayers!
    xoxo-Lisa

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  8. Thanks for visiting! I am so sorry to hear you are not well. You will certainly be in my prayers from this moment on!
    I just bought two of those cane chairs...the EXACT same chairs! You can find the caning at VanDykes Suppliers if you want to re-do them!

    I am your newest follower!

    Andie

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  9. I just read your blog and your post and I wanted to tell you what an inspiration you are. Truly. You will emerge from this a stronger, healthier and beautiful person.

    I will be praying for you.

    blessings,
    karianne

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  10. Hi Julie,
    Please know that you continue to be in my prayers. Hang in there Sweetie...Great finds by the way.

    Hugs and Blessings,
    ♥Ana

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  11. I am so happy to have found your blog via a google image search for "french dining chairs" (I love yours by the way!). My 11 yo daughter's best friend has been fighting cancer for the past year and just last week got bad news that there is more cancer and it is spreading rapidly. We too are Christians (as is the young girl and her mum). Of course we are praying for a miracle but I have found myself talking to my daughter about Heaven a lot lately, I guess trying to prepare her just in case, as the prognosis is not great.
    I will pray for you too :)
    Angex

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  12. I am so glad you are sharing your experiences. I think people aren't turned off but then feel a kinship with you since you are baring your soul. Praying for you. I am sure it can't be easy, and people often say the wrong thing. I know when my daughter was born with Down Syndrome, everyone seemed to say the wrong thing which told me they just didn't get it. Now I think they did get it, they just were clueless as far as what would be a supportive thing to say. Praying for you as you face this difficult journey.

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  13. Firstly, what a pretty chair! I love it just as is, all tattered and well loved. Secondly, it is hard for me to know what to say to someone who is suffering with Cancer. I don't want to say something flippant or rude, or for a comment to be taken the wrong way. All I can say is that although I've never been through this myself, my family recently went through the horror of ovarian cancer in my Aunt. It scared me to see what she went through, but also inspired me as she was so strong and wonderful through it all. I wish you a speedy recovery, and it's obvious to me that you're fighting it with the same dignity and determination that my Aunt did. Kick the crap out of this terrible disease!!

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