This is another post brought to you by the ramblings of cancer girl. I hope you will stayed tuned and not unsubscribe or unfollow. I will try to limit my ramblings. I know we all wonder around blog land for inspiration. Trust me, I know how depressing all of this cancer sharing can be. So, hang in there with me. I do have somethings to show you after I ramble.
I have officially made it half way through my chemo treatments. I start a new chemo drug, Taxol, for the next two months. I have my 1/2 way through chemo check with the surgeon next Tuesday. I am terrified that the chemo isn't working and the four nuisances are growing. I know it is counterproductive to think this way but I am only human.
When I first got the news that I had breast cancer, I was a complete mess. Everyone was telling me to stay positive. I really resented that. I mean, I was positive I didn't want cancer and positive I don't want to die from it either. After starting my chemo, I finally turned my attitude around. Instead of it being, 'I may die from this.' It turned into 'Let's get to this and finish it so I can live again.'
Being a Christian, I have always thought of entering those pearly gates. Those gates seemed to be set in front of me. To tell you the truth, it is scary. I know the one thing all of us have in common is we will all die. I just never anticipated having to think about it this early. I'll let you in on a little secret. I still am not thinking about it. I plan to make it through. I did have to giggle when I thought about hubs having to go through my closet and things. He would then know the real truth behind my hoarding habits. It would probably give him a heart attack. So, I better stick around.
Along with this being therapeutic, I have indulged in a little retail therapy. This beauty was from the antique store where I have my booth. Isn't it wonderful?! It will look even better dripped in crystals, don't you think?
Next, I fell in love with this french little chair at the auction. I felt like it represented me.
A little broken and tattered but still here. It will need the bad parts fixed and replaced but will end up looking great! (Hopefully, like me.)
You just got to love retail therapy. You can find hope and inspiration anywhere. Hope you are having a great week!
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